Tonight, I fell even more deeply in love with him.

I didn't even say no. I didn't say that I didn't want to go that far. I didn't say I wasn't ready. He just knew. He stopped what he was doing, held me and said "If I ever make you feel uncomfortable, please tell me". He didn't argue, he didn't decide to ignore how I was acting. He sacrificed his wants because he loves me.

Later when we were just cuddling, I looked at him and thanked him. He asked what for, and I said "for not making me feel like I had to. I don't want to add something else to the list to miss when you're gone"

I know how rare it is to find true love in your first love, but if this isn't true love, I can't wait for the real thing.

Why did he have to be in the military? Don't deny it, I'm sure we've all thought this. "Why did I have to fall for someone in the military?". But there's no turning back now. No matter how far he goes, I'm going to love him with every fiber of my being.

How did she know? My mom has never been in a situation like mine. Yet she was right when she said it would hurt more and more every time I had to watch him walk away.

He doesn't leave until Thursday morning and I'm already an emotional wreck.
Please pray for me.