CAMO - Connecting All Military Others
It's been one of those days which turned into one of those nights. Brian and I ended up fighting today unfortunately. I really hate how most guys keep their feelings to themselves and start getting an attitude and getting all pissy when things start to get to be too much for them. Everything was going good until Brian talked to his dad. They have a, well a weird relationship I guess is how I would describe it. Almost every time he talks to his dad he gets to be withdrawn afterwards and today was worse than normal. His grandpa is in the hospital with pneumonia and knowing Brian's dad he made it seem worse than it actually is and probably put a guilt trip on him. Like he doesn't have enough going on right now as it is. He's been overseas for almost months, he's stressed over his pt test because he only has one more chance to pass it, he's missing a year of our childrens life and is missing everyone at home. I understand why his dad told him, but it still pisses me off a bit. It always happens. He gets stressed and worried and bottles up his emotions that eventually he just gets all pissy and takes it out on me.
He gets mad at me when he asks me to do something if I don't get it done within a few hours. he knows I'm doing a lot. I'm going to school full time online, raising two toddlers by myself, cleaning, cooking, and generally just managing the house on my own. And I'm getting ready to move. I need a break, but I can't stand leaving the boys for any amount of time. I'm not doing very good in my classes and the instructors don't give very good feedback. I'm ready to give up on it. Seems like its what Brian wants anyway.
I just don't know anymore. I don't have many friends that live near me so I don't really have many people to talk to. At least not irl. I just want my family back together and everything to go back to normal.
you do have a lot on your plate. Dont give up because you worked and fought this long for what you have in your life. But if you do need to have some down time for yourself and maybe a little extra help on some days or every once in a while to give Brian that extra support when he needs it. also, just try speaking to him (once he is calm) about how he treated you and the way you feel. Military relationships must have great communication skills (along with trust of course) in order to work since our SO spends a lot of time away. A great treat would be a spa day mani, pedi, and dinner with your favorite group of people...it works for me