It's been one of those days which turned into one of those nights. Brian and I ended up fighting today unfortunately. I really hate how most guys keep their feelings to themselves and start getting an attitude and getting all pissy when things start to get to be too much for them. Everything was going good until Brian talked to his dad. They have a, well a weird relationship I guess is how I would describe it. Almost every time he talks to his dad he gets to be withdrawn afterwards and today was worse than normal. His grandpa is in the hospital with pneumonia and knowing Brian's dad he made it seem worse than it actually is and probably put a guilt trip on him. Like he doesn't have enough going on right now as it is. He's been overseas for almost  months, he's stressed over his pt test because he only has one more chance to pass it, he's missing a year of our childrens life and is missing everyone at home. I understand why his dad told him, but it still pisses me off a bit. It always happens. He gets stressed and worried and bottles up his emotions that eventually he just gets all pissy and takes it out on me.

He gets mad at me when he asks me to do something if I don't get it done within a few hours. he knows I'm doing a lot. I'm going to school full time online, raising two toddlers by myself, cleaning, cooking, and generally just managing the house on my own. And I'm getting ready to move. I need a break, but I can't stand leaving the boys for any amount of time. I'm not doing very good in my classes and the instructors don't give very good feedback. I'm ready to give up on it. Seems like its what Brian wants anyway.

I just don't know anymore. I don't have many friends that live near me so I don't really have many people to talk to. At least not irl. I just want my family back together and everything to go back to normal.